I know someone who always feels like ending her life. I told her that I admired the way she lived, which is a ridiculous thing to say. Why would anyone admire someone who is always at baseline suicidal? I tried to unpack what I meant by it and this is what came out:

You, who bears this unrelenting weight of depression,
wake every morning and ask, "Why not today
finally Rest?"

I know for you
life drags on
despite your protestations,

but I believe that you
more than anyone else has
this remarkable opportunity
, or maybe undesired obligation,
to choose life
every
moment.

See, for you, life
is not a given,
like the certainty of sunrise.

Every morning, you must choose,
stay or go?
Every morning, you ask yourself, why stay?
How do I make
today
at least bearable
and possibly worthwhile?

Then,
to see you be kind and generous and loving,
I am left concluding,
that love alone fulfills life's purpose.

And, I am reminded that for me love is the source from
which all worthwhile things must spring
(I worry so much about how much hate drives our politics these days)

Then, I feel
reaffirmed, revitalized,
and grateful, for you, who bears this weight,
reminding me to love and
act in all ways from love.

May 24, 2017

Understanding Trauma: Learning Brain vs Survival Brain

This video reframes a trauma perspective in terms of learning brain versus survival brain as a way to make it easier for teachers to talk about trauma with students.

Jun 26, 2017

"Every Opportunity" Deconstructed

Every Opportunity is a wonderful video for schools to see the difference between a school in crisis based survival mode versus one that puts student into learning brain through the foundation of relationships and teaching social emotional and neurodevelopmental tasks. I show the video and break down what I think about it.

Mar 30, 2017

Secure Attachment

This is a little tutorial on secure attachment that i made with my dear from Thomas Moon. We're going to do a series of training videos to share what I've learned as much as I can.